Tuesday, December 31, 2019

Thank You 2019

Soweto, South Africa
Hey guyzies, hopefully everything is great and okay. 
2019 tried me in all aspects of life as type this and reviewing time monthly 
I can't help but smile and say
2019 You Tried Me. 

I recall in January I had my first real panic attack which lasted a good couple of days, and since 
I identified my panic attack I haven't had one stretching for days, 
I would like to thank God for that. 
I also had to deal with a reality of being a single mom ( I never like sharing personal personal things here on the blog but I just have to put this out there) yeap I'm a single Mom and never planned for things to go bad there either but God has different plans for my life so, 
thank God for that I guess. 
Left my job because I got tied of working the same job in different companies and not being valued enough, plus my boss was a ***** and I was just done so, 
thank God for that. 
My weight is at an all time high because I can't stop myself from eating two bags of potato chips in less than 10 minutes for a while I never saw it but I think I have food addiction because I have soo many emotions bottled up however I have no outlet (which is supposed be creating content/blogging) however it just added to my anxiety because I began comparing myself to everyone under the Sun and forgetting my own inner sunshine. however I'm glad that I'm typing this,
so thank God for that.

Blah blah blah blah just wrote done a few things that made my 2019 suck however I powered through like a soldier and partially showed up when I was meant to show up but I forgot to 
show up and be selfish for me. 

In 2020 I'm saying enough with the self-loathing and more with self-love. 

Hopefully we get to share this journey together. 

See you soon

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Zanele

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